to society,

tears pour down my face

as everyone stares in despise.

someone is always unhappy

why do I always have to justify myself 

why can’t I just be myself

I feel so weak and repulsed from the inside

I promise to learn to love,

love all of me and my capabilities, 

one day…

these dark shadows surround me,

it’s like a never ending trail of regret,

no matter where I turn,

no matter what I seek,

I can’t forgive myself.

it’s always there flashing before my eyes;

my guilt, my baby’s life I’d taken away.

yet you all despise the gift of life anyway.